Stuck In The Middle

 
    The last week or so hasn't been the best week. Not that I'm having issues with my head, but because everyone else around me is having problems. Not specifically mentally. More hormonally, or stress related. I really can't say for 100% certainty, but I'd wager some money on it.

 
I've also spent the last year or so, but more recently the last couple of weeks trying to find the time AND courage to finally sit down and write. Not just blog, but to sit down, and write a gut-wrenching tale, that will likely be the most painful, and pleasurable thing I'll ever write.
It seems the only time I can find is when I'm lying in bed, in the middle of the night. I'd absolutely love to get up and start writing, but I don't want to wake up my girlfriend/wife, or anyone else in the house, for that matter.
When I find myself at home throughout the day, I just don't have it in me to sit, and commit the time I need. I suppose my former life (up all night and sleeping most days) truly is what I need. The most unfortunate part is: No one else in my house is quite as nocturnal as I am. Maybe someday in the near future I'll convince myself to do just that.

 
Now that I'm slowly getting used to taking my new meds (Zoloft), I'm finding that I have a bit of a temper. Like I said previously, this is a foreign feeling for me. I NEVER get angry. I don't even get upset. So, when I find myself blowing up at the simplest of things, I'm taken aback. Why is this happening to me? Why do I feel this way?

 
I'm sitting here in front of my computer, with a million things to write down, and to share. It's all in my head, but none of it wants to come out of me. I suppose this is called "Writer's block"? Or, is it something a little more sinister? I don't know.

 
Keep smiling!

 

My Life - An Update

I know it's been quite a while since I posted here.  I've had many things good and bad happen over the last month or so.  Not to get too much into detail, my girlfriend/wife and I had a bit of a disagreement, but now things are back to the way they should be. 

As I mentioned about a month or so ago, I began taking Wellbutrin.  It seams I'm suffering from a lot of the side effects:

• blurred vision, tunnel vision, eye pain or swelling, or seeing halos around lights;
• fast heartbeats;
• fever, swollen glands, rash or itching, joint pain, or general ill feeling;
• confusion, trouble concentrating, hallucinations, unusual thoughts or behavior;  
• dry mouth, nausea, stomach pain;
• headache, dizziness, ringing in your ears;
• vision changes;
• loss of interest in sex;
• mild itching or skin rash, increased sweating, increased urination;
• changes in appetite, weight loss, or gain 

Those are the direct side effects I'm directly having to deal with.  However, there are more 'possible' side effects.  

I'm still not working.  I honestly don't know if I can, or ever will again.  I'm trying to keep busy around the house:  Doing laundry, dishes, cooking, cleaning, etc....  Yes, that's right, I've become a housewife.  But hey, I'm not complaining.  It keeps me busy, and for the most part, out of trouble.

I know a while ago, I told you that I'm working on a book.  Well, I suppose with all this new 'free time' I have, I should work some more on it.  After all, it seems like I've got nothing but time now. 

I'll keep posting, if you keep reading.  Please feel free to share this on Facebook, Twitter, Instgram, or whatever social network you belong to.  I'm a firm believer that the words need to be LOUD regarding Mental Health.

Keep smiling.

Teaser.....

Here's a bit of a teaser for you.  Believe it or not, I spent most of today in front of my laptop, and this is all I could string together.  It's harder than I thought, and clearly, not as painless as I had anticipated.

Please keep in mind, that this is a FICTIONAL work. 
When everything is said and done, I'll have the link for you to read/purchase the finished product.

The prologue:

September 9^th, 2009 was said to be the happiest day of his life. Tom Dawson and Ashley D'Ambrosio were newlyweds. Everything in their lives were now perfect. Everything was complete. They were both ready and clearly willing to spend the rest of their lives together.

However, less that two short years later, on June 28^th, 2011, Tom's life would change. Ashley had decided to leave him, for a long lost ex-boyfriend. The following days weren't pretty. Not really knowing where Ashley had gone, or why she chose to leave so shortly after moving perplexed him.

Falling on the old fail-safe of his past life, he found that void temporarily in the arms of woman after woman, after woman.

But, that's not what this story is about. It's about one particular woman. A woman who saw Tom's vulnerability and kindness, then took careful aim, and took full advantage of it, then threw him under the bus.